I was at a red light the other day and I had to giggle. When I was little, I thought there were tiny people inside the stop light; switching the colors from green to red to yellow. I could not figure out how the people got small enough to fit in there and why the colors didn't change quicker. Naivety and innocence. It is cute in a child and it is part of the process for them to theorize and test. But they eventually find out the truth and they grow in that and continue to understand things on a deeper level.
It makes me ponder God as our Father. When I think of my journey as a daughter of Christ, I realize I have been using my finite mind for way too long. I try to explain situations and circumstances with such an infinitely small perspective compared to God's vantage point. I insert my own priorities as a filter to figure out what the heck is going on. I'm sure He smiles and laughs (not at us, but with us) . I'm positive He doesn't get upset with us when we do this. But it is silly really. I've been trying to shove "little men into stoplights" to explain my faith, my fears, my dreams, my weaknesses. God does not want us to use our simple minds to come up with answers. He already has all the answers. He sees the whole thing from start to finish all at once. Miscarriages, cancer, car accidents, job losses, relational losses - we can analyze the causes and reasons for this all day or we can go to God's word and dwell in the moment with Him. John 1 says the word became flesh and that life was the light for all mankind and the light shines in the darkness. We should turn to this light, the handbook of life, the Word of God to help us understand and the shine in the darkness.
I need to mature in my faith. I need to get the Word of God ingrained in my mind and my heart so that I will stop trying to make sense of things on my own. "Trust in the Lord, lean not on your own understanding." (Proverbs 3:5) How do we trust in the Lord? We have to get to know Him better. We must spend time understanding what He did for us. We must cling to his promise that we have been created for a purpose. That He gives us each breath for a reason. We cannot and should not be the ones trying to figure it out. The Holy Spirit should be leading us to this knowledge.
I have been guilty of going months and months without reading the Bible. But how, as a Christian, can I give someone the reason of my hope (1 Peter 3:15) when I only view it through my selfish lens and use my immature understanding to navigate life? When will we be able to encourage a friend going through a tough trial using truth and love from the only source that matters (not clever pillow covers and mugs - even though I really love a good pillow)? When will we realize our kids will learn behavior from us so we need to figure out what this grace is all about, from the pages that have stood the test of time? When will we turn off the depressing newscast and read The. Best. News. you'll ever receive, period?
Because that's simply it, Jesus gave himself over to death so we don't have to. Breathe that truth. Rest in the truth of His unstoppable love, memorize it, write it on your heart. Ok & on your pillows and mugs.
Father, help us to to grow in our understanding of you. Help us to not craft answers for life's journey on our own. Help us to memorize your truth and depend on it so we can navigate and help others find their way to You. Help us to shine the light of Your word in the darkness.
**the above image is a picture I took during Rose Night at Brooklyn Botanic Garden in 2013**